When I tell you I want to know all of you, I hope you know I mean it from the bottom of my heart. We all have a past, some worse than others, but regardless of yours I want to know everything. Especially the parts you tried to throw away– you know, the parts you convinced yourself no one could ever love, because those are the ones I’ll love a little extra.
I am not proud of my past but it has helped me understand who I was and who I don’t want to be. The past can serve a positive purpose if we want a better future. I am here in the present and have no ties to your past. I am not your past.
I want to understand you by where you came from and how you got to where you are now. I want to travel that journey with you, but you need to trust me.
I know it may be hard for you to believe but I’m not here to hurt you. It’s hard for me to trust you and have faith in you too, but I am. I just want you to know that I’m willing to wait until you’re comfortable enough with me to show me your life, past and present.
Please remember that I’m not going to judge you or criticize you. I’m not going to use it against you in any way, shape or form. I promise not to ever throw your past or current life in your face in the heat of a moment.
I know it’s going to take some time to open up to me and I’m okay with that, just because I’m an open book doesn’t mean everyone else is too.
You get worried and anxious about certain behaviors and actions because it reminds you of bad parts of your past. But I’m not part of that and you really need to stop associating me with your past, I am not your old friends and ex girlfriends. And from the sounds of it, I’m glad I’m not.
I’m your present and you’re my present. It’s called “present” for a reason, because it’s a gift. Today, you are one of the gifts I am so grateful to have in my life.
You need to leave the past where it is and either bury it or close the chapter on that part of your life. You say you don’t trust people and have a hard time opening up to people because of bad memories and pain you went through.
How can I prove to you and help you understand that you can trust me? How else can I show you that all I want is for you to be happy and to be happy in whatever you want to call “us”? I say it like that because it’s never been talked about but we both know we’re more than friends.
You will always be my friend first. I need you to know that I only want the best for you and that I am here simply because you’re you. I do not want to cause chaos or drama in your life. I want to bring happiness, joy, comfort and be your safe haven when you are down and out.
Please start trusting me. Try to open up to me more. I can only understand you if you let me in, even the slightest. It’s hard to give someone the benefit of the doubt when you’ve been burned in the past, but I’m asking you to take a chance on me. I know I’m worth it and I hope at some point, you’re able to see it. I truly want you to know that my purpose is not to cause harm or bring pain.
So please trust me and believe me when I say I have your best interest at heart. It kills me to know the pain and hurt you’ve been through but I want to be the one to replace those times with positive and happy memories. If you let me in, you will see my heart is pure as gold and that I wouldn’t hurt you.
If you give me the chance, I will show you how you deserve to be treated. You deserve kindness, peace, love and admiration but above all, you deserve to be treated with respect and equality. You deserve someone who values your opinion and someone who will battle beside you to overcome any challenge or problem that comes your way.
And lastly, you deserve to be treated like the amazing and beautiful person you are on the inside and out. You are loving, caring and compassionate and you deserve the same love and compassion in return. And I will gladly do that if you give me the chance. Thank you for being an inspiration in my life and for showing me that not everyone in the world is going to hurt me. You truly have been a blessing in my life and I hope it continues.