Don’t Let Anyone Dull Your Sparkle

She spent a long time rebuilding herself because an emotionally abusive person knocked her down and made her feel less than. She’s got a heart of gold but she still has insecurities and bad days where she feels awful about herself. Her heart was broken to pieces when he took advantage of her good heart.

He fucked with her emotions. He acted as if he was the sweetest most loving person when really, he was a fake and a phony. He said all of the right things and fed off of her insecurities like a pro. What satisfaction does that give him? Did he enjoy every last minute until the time he decided he was done with her?

She did confide in him about many things and she thought he confided in her as well but that couldn’t be further from the truth. Why did he have sex with her and stop talking to her not even 24 hours after? She just needs to know what happened, She wants closure. If he had a change of heart or feelings changed, she still deserves to know for her own peace of mind.

She gave her heart to him because he made her believe he was real. He made indirect comments about being her boyfriend. She thought you guys had a blast together the times you went out. So, what was it? Was she too good to be true? Well, she is real and most definitely too good for him.

Suddenly walking away like he did fucked with her self-esteem and self worth. She told him time and time again that she was nervous and self-conscious about her herself and all he said was “you’re beautiful and amazing,” That was a lie. Was anything he said remotely close to the truth? Or was the whole thing about getting laid?

Anyone who does that is a disgusting and disgraceful excuse for a human being. He has no problems sleeping at night knowing he’s intentionally hurting people’s feelings.

She is lying awake playing everything back in her mind to see where or what could have gone wrong. She comes up with nothing. She cries and cries and is beating herself up because she feels used and manipulated. She is physically sick to her stomach because she can’t fathom how a person could take such a precious girl and damage what she worked so hard to piece back together.

She thinks that everything he ever told her was a blatant lie. He played an expert role when it came to being the insecure, lost little boy. It’s almost as if it was an unconscious thing to do. The thing is, she wouldn’t have ran away had he been honest about things. Because she would have had his back when everyone else turned theirs on him.

He can’t just blow it with the one girl who would always put him first and herself second. Or at least give an explanation as to why he got up and left without a word. Her feelings matter and she deserves an explanation. She doesn’t deserve to be beating herself up because he’s a shitty person.

She is awesome and amazing and losing her will be his biggest regret. She’s so much more than what he sees but that’s ok. She made a promise to herself that no one would ever dull her sparkle again.

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5 Songs For When You Need to Reclaim Your Strength

I don’t ever know the right things to say to others nor do I always know how to describe what I am feeling or thinking. Music is there for me in those times. Lyrics help me feel not so alone and that someone else gets me.

If you’re struggling with something right now, listen to these songs. They’re motivating, relatable and have the power to give you the strength you need to get through shit.

1. Eminem – Beautiful Pain

This is probably one of the most beautiful and well thought out song I’ve ever heard. The overall message the song sends is uplifting, hopeful, encouraging and motivating.

“Never looking back, may hit the curb, but everyday is a new learning curve, as you steer through life, sometimes you might not wanna swerve but you have to, to avert a disaster, lucky no permanent damage,”.

We all go through rough times in our lives and I think it’s important to remember that everything we experience is an opportunity to learn, change and grow as a person. He’s basically saying that there everyday we are alive is a learning experience, even when the outcome is not what we hoped, wanted or planned.

2. Demi Lovato – Warrior

In the beginning of the song, she talks about someone stealing the light inside of her and how she’s confused and ashamed. By the end of the song, she’s a warrior with thicker skin. She’s a warrior with protection made of steel so this person can’t hurt her again.

“Now I’m taking back my life today. Nothing left that you can say. Cause you are never gonna take the blame anyway,”.

She takes a stand for her life and vows to do everything in her power to not let that person hurt her ever again. And that person won’t be able to hurt her again because she is now a warrior.

3. Shinedown – For My Sake

This song is simply amazing. It’s pretty straightforward and to the point. He is saying that he’s done being unappreciated and treated poorly. He’s taking a stand for himself and telling that person there’s nothing left between them and will not look back, for his sake.

“I’m taking you on, I’m calling you out, there’s nothing left for us here now, let’s be honest, I promise, I’m never looking back. For my sake. For my sake,”.

He is calling someone out on the way that person treated him or lied to him or both. He’s taking a stand for himself. He is calling it quits with this person because all this person is doing is hindering his ability to progress in his life.

4. Shinedown – How Did You Love

Do you ever think about what you leave behind when you die? How did you treat people? How will people remember you? The song is about how you lived your life from the time you were born to the time you die. It really makes you think about what you’ve done and what you can do in the present moment.

“How we forget ourselves, lose our way from the cradle to the grave. You can replicate or duplicate, gotta find your own way. This ain’t no cross to bury. We are the judge and jury. We are the judge and jury,”.

You don’t get a say in how people think about you. You don’t get to judge your own life after you’re gone. The judge and jury are those who knew you and the person you were. You do have a say in how you live your life right now. So, are you going to strive to be a better person each day or are you going to be hateful or negative? You get to decide that now, while you’re alive.

5. Kesha – Learn To Let It Go

The title of the song pretty much explains what she is saying. She’s expressing the importance of the past but to not allow your past to define who you are today. We’ve all been through our fair share of shitty experiences but the song relays the message that holding on to the past and resentments we hold are poisonous and restrict us from growing and moving on.

“Life ain’t always fair, but hell is living in resentment. Choose redemption. Your happy ending’s up to you,”.

You can either live in hell with your resentments and anger toward past situations or people that were in your life or you can save yourself and be happy by letting it go. The choice is yours.

6. Kesha – Praying

This is my current theme song for those who put me through hell. The message is about finding peace in rather hopeless moments. It’s also about forgiving those who have wronged you as a way to free yourself, grow as a person and build your strength.

“I had to learn how to fight for myself. And we both know all the truth I could tell. I’ll just say this is I wish you farewell. I hope you’re somewhere, praying. Praying. I hope your soul is changing. Changing. I hope you find your peace. Fallin’ on your knees, praying,”.

The song paints a picture of forgiving rather than hating. Even though there is information she could use against another, she just wishes him farewell and hopes the person is changing their ways. That is what forgiveness is all about.

There are so many songs and lyrics that help during rough times but these 5 I couldn’t get through things without. Music and lyrics mean everything to me and I listen very carefully for the meaning. Lyrics are there for times when we’re speechless or don’t know how to word things.

You May Not Have Thought I Was Worth It, But Someone Will

You may not have thought I was worth the fight. Well, obviously you didn’t because we wouldn’t be where we are right now if you did. I put my worth in the hands of you, a miserable and condescending douche, so I should have known my worth was next to nothing to you. You’re loss. Someone will see my worth and treat me as such.

Every time I brought up my feelings about something or that I was upset, you immediately went on the defense and blamed me. You’re lack of acknowledgment was telling enough of how much you thought I was worth.

You ignored anything I was going through and found something to make it about you. And when you did that, I actually sat there and listened and comforted you as a good girlfriend would. But in hindsight, you didn’t give a shit about anything I went through or any of the struggles I conquered everyday. That says what you thought I was worth. Nothing.

You said I was overreacting and overly sensitive. You said I was reading into things too much. But turns out, I wasn’t. I wasn’t worth the conversation when you decided to up and leave. Goes to show my worth to you throughout the entire relationship.

You never had my back. I was fighting battles that your friends and family started with me while you sat on the sidelines and watched as if it were a match. I wasn’t worth defending in your eyes.

Because of the hell you put me through, I am now the one and only holder of my worth. I have defined my worth and no one will ever be in charge of that again. Side note, it was you that wasn’t worth it.

Someone will appreciate my sarcasm and brutal honesty. Someone will notice the small things I do for them on a consistent basis. You never did and for that, you didn’t deserve me.

There is someone out there who will be able to see past my mistakes and help me instead of throw me to the curb. Someone won’t judge my past or my background and see me for the strong and passionate person I am. You couldn’t see that and clearly it wasn’t worth it to see. But it will be to someone. You’re loss again, buddy.

You’ll never find someone as chill and laid back as me. You’ll never find someone who thinks the world of you and would put you over their own issues any day.

I am for sure worth more than you ever cared to realize. I was the one who was too good for you. You didn’t deserve me or anything I gave you materialistically or emotionally.

So, thanks to you, I’ll never settle for “okay”. I deserve much, much more than I ever gave myself credit for. But because you treated me like a worthless piece of shit, I was able to find my worth from within.

In the end, I ended up gaining so much more without you in my life then when you were in it. My worth is mine to define and you no longer have the hold on my worth. I’ve released myself from it and will never let it into the hands of another again.

Things To Know Before Falling for the Dive Head First Sassy Girl

I’m warning you, she’ll be challenging but in all the good ways. She will test your limits to see how far she can push. But please know her intention is not to hurt you. She just needs to know if you’re staying or going.

She’s a sassy little lady with a heart of gold but she doesn’t tolerate bullshit. She doesn’t do drama or chaos. Some of it is inevitable but if it becomes habitual, she’ll walk out the door so fast the door won’t have a chance to hit her ass on the way out.

Her sass mouth combined with her “I don’t give a fuck” attitude could get you into some trouble but all in good fun. Her “you can’t phase me” exterior is there to protect her vulnerable and big heart. She needs to know you’re diving in with her if she’s going to allow that part of her to show.

She’s the ride or die chick that asks questions later. She will always be down for you as long as you’re real with her. She’ll do anything and everything in her power and control for you as long as you’re honest and loyal.

Sure, she can be overly sensitive and emotional but that’s only because she’s passionate about everything in her life. If you’re lucky to be in her life and remain there, you’ll see that in no time. And that includes you.

She falls fast but she loves deeply and unconditionally. Love has no limits and has no boundaries. Her love is pure and real once you get it. She’s honest and loyal to a fault at times.

She doesn’t require a lot. She’s not a fan of presents or gifts because she’d take moments and memories over gifts every time. She’ll cherish every moment and take advantage of creating something beautiful out of those moments.

She will show you every single day and every single moment she can how important you are and the love she has for you. She will make an effort each and every day to show you her appreciation and love.

If you ever find yourself lost on your journey, she’ll be there to help you and hold down the relationship until you’re back on track. When she’s committed, she’s in 110% no questions asked.

Divorce isn’t an option for her. She’d rather stay single the rest of her life than give up on someone she loves. If you’re angry with her or hurt about something she did or said, take your sweet ass to the couch (or she’ll go since she’s little and fun size) and you’ll hash it out tomorrow.

You’ll never have to question or doubt her love and loyalty because she’ll show you every day how committed she is to you and us. No matter what, she’ll always have your back and you’ll always have a partner in crime.

If There is a God, Please Help Her

The girl who’s always smiling can’t find it in her to fake it anymore… She’s exhausted. Please, help her.

She fights every damn day with her demons and right now, they’re winning. The worst part is, there’s no telling what thoughts are racing through her head.

She’s screaming and crying out for help but no one’s really listening to her. Everyday she wakes up she wishes she wasn’t here. Everyday she goes to sleep, she prays she doesn’t wake up.

Everyday is becoming more of an uphill battle that is becoming almost impossible for her to fight. The smiles are less and less. Her laugh is nearly nonexistent. Her depression is taking over. Please God, or I am begging you to save her.

She has a smile that can light up a room and a laugh that is infectious. Please do not let that go to waste. She feels as if she’s fighting a losing battle. Her depression has hold of her and she needs strength and power to beat it.

She feels alone. She feels hopeless. She believes she’s helpless. The world needs more people as selfless and caring as her. Please, help her.

She thinks she’s served her purpose already but she has so much more to do in the world. She feels the walls are closing in on her and no one will help or save her.

She feels like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. She’s managed to push everyone away to a point of no return. This is not who she is or who she worked hard to become. This is depression taking over her already vulnerable and fragile mind.

She’s convinced herself that no one cares about her. She can’t even wrap her head around why anyone would… Without even realizing it, she’s sabotaging everything in her life. Well, her depression is.

She doesn’t want to feel this way. She wants to change and be happy. That’s what she wishes for every time she sees a shooting star. To be lifted from this depression and experience joy.

This girl is on a downward spiral and it’s spinning out of control. To the point where even just the thought of death is comforting to her. It’s giving her a sense of peace from the pain and hurt she feels. I truly hope it’s not too late. No one should feel comforted by the thought of death.

She’s in a very scary place. She’s afraid to be alone because of what she might do. The pain increases as each day goes by. The world needs her and her purpose is not yet fully served.

Please, God, help this girl. Give her the strength to at least put up a fight. She’s so weak and lonely and it’s only a matter of time before she’s lost forever. Then it’ll be too late because her only means of ridding the pain is by getting rid of herself.